Like Marvin said, "What's going on"

I have not posted on here forever. I have not posted a picture since always. Well here is a follow up ( a very brief one). My oldest daughter is graduating from high school, so I am busy with that. I am attending college, yep busy with that too. Still trying to get pregnant and I will be starting Lupron soon. Yippee! I get to be poked with a needle! My hair is growing and shrinking. My hair feels so dry, but I had a lot of slippage during my re-ti, so I do not want to put a lot of stuff in it. I am not a braid and bander...nope... no sir. I just would rather wash my hair without all the extra. Right now I am branding my hair up so that I can have a braid out for tomorrow and then off to bed. I am so surprised that I am not fully locked yet. My hair is so tightly coiled, I thought I would be locked quickly. Nope we are almost at 7 months and my ends are not sealed. Oh and to do a follow up on all the things that I said I would do as far as skin. Well I am not consistent enough to give a proper review. So, sorry. Wow this post is a real bummer. Right?

Keeping my finger and toes crossed

I have been having a hard time conceiving this last go around. It has been an emotional roller coaster. There are times that I really feel like giving up and there are days that I feel so positive. I just gave myself a trigger shot about two hours ago and this Sunday we will be going back to the doctor to be inseminated again. The doctor said that we will have to sit down and reevaluate if there is no pregnancy this go around. I know that IVF is not something that we can afford on top of the money that we have spent on IUI, so that is not really and option for us. I was surprised that the clinic was going to open on Easter. The plan is to get inseminated and hopefully make it to church before the doors close. We will be cutting it very close. A part of me says that I should be satisfied with the two kids that I already have and maybe having a third is just not in the cards for us. There are a lot of women who can not even have one baby and I am blessed with two kids. But I know that my family is not complete and I know that a third child is my future. I might have waited to long for me to be able to conceive again, but maybe the child is already here and is just waiting for me to be his or her mother. Anyway, one thing I am working on is losing weight. I have lost about 13 pounds so far since March. I hope the weight loss will help with conception.

Check one, Check two, check, check, check

I am just checking in and giving an update. My next post will include some picture, I promise. I just need to find the time to have someone take some pictures of me. I hate the pictures of the reflection in the bathroom mirror look. I am trying a few youtube inspired short loc styles and I am getting a ton of compliments on my styling. I have done twist and braid outs before, but felt that pipe cleaner curls were best left on longer hair. Well I did pipe cleaner curls last weekend and received a lot of compliments on my locs. The compliments were starting to make me a little self-conscious after awhile. On a personal level, my mother is doing better after her health scare. I thought that I was going to lose her and I am so grateful that I didn't. I had a positive pregnancy test and felt so happy, thankful and blessed. Then I started bleeding. I am still trying to get over the fact that I am not pregnant and I am wondering if it will ever happen again for me. I am thankful for the family I have and I will be trying again. Wish me luck.